Sometimes the loudest criticisms are self imposed. Your fight is not with your current demons but more so their origins. If you can pacify their root in the past, then doubt will not blossom in your future. .
Also, here is a Buddha statue I bought for a buck and spray painted gold.....whooooosaaaah.....
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